The butterfly theory

So wow. you know for many years I never fully understood how a girl could fall for a guy or what 'falling' even meant.

Being single at the age of 23, Ive always been the objective type seeing things from a 'by-stander' perspective. I saw many couples come and go, seeing the girl fall for her guy, the sparkles in her eyes, the happy face slapping smile that nobody could get rid of.... haha. Seeing couples happy and seeing their relationship develop and eventually after a few yaers (well in the good cases) get engaged or even married (ya thats what happened to many of my friends over the past 3 years)

Anyway I think being single for so many years made me some what blind to the fact that this 'butterfly' feeling can exist. FOR EVERYONE! So what type of girl am I? Im the independant girl, the busy body who works hard and stays strong. The girl who knows a lot of people and knows who she is. Im the type who has many friends, is half a tom boy/half a girly girl and the type who stayed away from relationships because they seemed complicated, I always used the 'I'm busy" excuse and well... I needed the right ONE, the one guy who could make me believe in the butterfly theory.

So what is this butterfly theory?

Well for the girls.... Theres so many ways to descirbe it, and you almost can't decribe it in words so the only way people would undertand is by saying they have legit BUTTERFLIES in the stomach ;) I guess it is different for each girl... mmm wonder if boys get butterflies??



The butterfly symptoms:

• think about the person alot... everything you see makes you maybe think of them or relates to a memory of some kind.
• day dreams... constantly.
• nervous/giddy/ stupid smile face when you know you going to see them soon
• feeling in the pit of your gut when you finally get to see him and they smile at you
• the feeling of wishing time could stop when you with him so that you can chill longer
• the feeling of NOT being humanly able to stop smiling
• the complete peace of mind you have knowing this guy is just perfect for you and that this was meant to happen in life
• the feeling of wanting to share every thought, dream, question with this guy
• feeling 100% safe and secure in their company
• that lame cheesy feeling you get on the inside of your chest and your heart just dies when he says stuff like "you are lovely" or "I am attracted to your heart" or" I want to look after you"---- I MEAN WHO THE HECK SAYS STUFF LIKE THAT?? who!!! kinda hard to hear words like that and fully believe the senserity behind them (not because it's not true... but just because wow... WOW... kind words kill everytime haha)
• the smile on your face when your screen lights up with a message from him
• the 'blessed' state of mind a girl just seems to be absorbed in and lives through.
• that moment when you can sit in a car and not even speak being absoluetely content being in another humans company and you can turn your head and say "I am happy"...
• well that's my butterfly theory.

Theory explained. I think I get it now. You know all the chick flik movies you watch and say I wow that can't be real.. but then you secretly want your own cinderella story? well BOOM be careful what you wish for, coz you just might get it.

Well when the time is right, when you are ready, when he is ready and well... when God gives the GREEN LIGHT to bless the both of you with the butterflies!

At the end of the day. Oh my word... if you find a guy that gives you these butterflies.. good luck living through each day hahaha. Treat him right and appreciate him, coz its so worth it!

 x x x

Worth it!

Dear readers...
Been a while ey.
Lifes been pretty much madness since I last posted.

So as life goes on and we grow up certain things happen that may or may not change your life forever.

As girls, we often keep things in our heads, then vent to each other for days, weeks and months on end. BOYS haha... oh the WAIT FOR PRINCE CHARMING seems like an endless wait at a bustop ;)

I myself, have kind of always just blown through the wind, praying and waiting. Waiting can kind of be a super annoying stage but ey we just have to get through. Been chatting to a few close friends lately about this and well it seems its an issue for most. Is the wait worth it?

If i can say anything it would be that if your SEARCHING AND CHASING for a relationship or for Mr Right to find you. It most likely wont happen. We get so consumed by being single or trying to find someone to fill that 'gap' that we actually miss life and maybe even missing something right in front of our eyes. Something thats been there for a while but our brains refued to see it because we were too self absorbed.
The best thing to do would be LIVE LIFE and LOVE IT. Girls with a quiet peace and stillness are happy girls. Its been a long time coming where I could finally feel that peace, its something a person needs to decide on daily. TODAY I WILL BE HAPPY AND BE AT PEACE. why?

Well for me, I can be at peace because in the Stillness I know he is God and God blesses his children and we are favoured.

My closing words for my question... is it worth it? worth waiting for Prince charming?
My answer is 5 parts
1. Dont wait for him, live life and become a princess you've been born to be first. Sort your issues and be content with life and your own struggles. Otherwise 'THE WAIT' will juist frustrate you to the pouint of losing hope. (and we dont want that)
2. IT IS SO WORTH THE WAIT. every guy you thought you ever liked, had a crush on, or that lame guy that hurt you or that boy who friendzoned you for years. BOOM now you can say "Thank you that it never worked out with any of those dumbies"
3. Ah man its all worth it when you in a car and there's that one person next to you that is just staring at you and pouring out his feelings. It us that moment when you realize. THIS IS HAPPENING! It's that same moment when you cant stop smiling and you want to vomit or scream or die or just hug him till he cant breath haha.
4. WAIT for the hero that will call you lovely, that won't be afriad to tell you how he feels, that won't be afraid of what is to come next and who isn't afraid to share his heart and trust the girl sitting next to him.
5. If you are waiting for that? IT IS WORTH IT!

PRINCES OF THE KINGDOM ARE TOO REAL. :)



Till next time xxx

Simple joy

So I've been thinking lately, we waste so much of our time striving for big explosions of happiness or the event that would bring ultimate contentment. What about the little things? What about everything else that we let slip by whilst waiting for something big to happen. What if all the little things make up for  the time wasted waiting for 'that thing' you have been waiting for. It's the simple joys that happen in dull moments which can bring us happiness if we let it.

Like turning around a bend and the traffic light turns green to go...
Like a friends saying they miss you on a wall post...
Like your mom buying you a packet of sweets when you get home...
Like finding a quality youtube video that keeps you laughing for hours..
Like a hug from a friend
Like a smile from a car guard or till cashier
Like a prayers from a stranger...
Being invited to social events without asking
A gentelmen opening the door
Receiving a reply straight after you sent a message
Getting home and supper is made
A friend letting his food go cold in order to wait for our food to arrive

It's the little things that can effect the big things.

Much love

What are we looking for?

Mattew 7:7 
 “Ask, and what you are asking for will be given to you. Look, and what you are looking for you will find. Knock, and the door you are knocking on will be opened to you. (NLV)

Sometimes what we WANT is different from what we NEED. Sometimes we may ask for things and have to wait for the right time to receive it. A purpose driven life is waiting and hoping with a steadfast heart for the things we have dreamed of, actively waiting and seeking for greater things, getting up and living life.

We should ask ourselves, are we ready for the things we are asking for in life? Maybe we have already received it but it just looks diferent from what we expected.


Expect the unexpected.Never give up hope. Keep asking.

Till next time xxx

Facebook Etiquette

Oh dear Facebook user...

Social media is so powerful, Facebook in all it's glory is probably one of the easiest means to communication these days. Facebook is easy, it's a good way to keep in touch, good way to share fun or intersting info, a cheap way to connect. The many uses, I could write an essay, photo-loving, music sharing, status updates, passing time during lunch or checking your home page during a boring lecture. Whatever it may be, yes even I love facebook and have no shame saying that I use it, alot.

HOWEVER, it has recently just occured to me (actually no that is a lie, I've seen it for years) where people have just become so absorbed by facebook that it become s a personal diary or love letter to their partner or a venting emo session.

I would love to know WHY? what inside a persons mind or fingertips would drive them to typing an essay as a status? or updating how much you love your person every few hours. Or MOTHERS please, it is social suicide writing soppy posts on your kids (sons especially) walls or posting photos of when they were babies. NOT COOL. haha oh man, cringe!

Okay maybe I'm wrong or do all these people forget just how public FACEBOOK is? And once it's out there in cyber space, it will always be there.

Keep it real x

The authenticity of love

Hello 2013.

It's been a while, but here's a thought.

This year I wish to challenge myself into what it really means to understand, not the soppy kind of romantic love that we always just think of when we see hearts or look ahead to that day we call VALENTINES ;)

No. I mean, our love in the true authentic meaning of it. Loving ourselves, loving life, loving God, having love for people, our friends, partners, family, the poor, loving our hobbies or our pets, I guess what I mean is underatnduing the in's and out's of our hearts and what is meant by "Being in love with LOVE". It needs to be more than a word or a song lyric or a feeling or passing emotion, it needs to be a state of being, a movement, a lifestyle.

I've recently decided to do some theologial reserch on the term LOVE. I think to some people the word is overused and perhaps even lossed it's meaning. To others, maybe its misundertood or even used against each other. To many it is a complex thing term that they don't know what to do with. But to those who get to feel it, experience it, a zeal for love in life it becomes quite simple...

1 Corinthians 13:3-13

³ If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,^[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. ¹¹ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

peace x

Smells like Summer... the dawn of a new year!

So it's been a while since I blogged, 3 months to be exact, I dont know why I just lost some inspriation and before I knew it... bam, the year was almost gone.

So as 2012 is coming to a close I look back at this year, wow. So much has changed, so many people have left my sphere of life, so many new people have entered it. It has been a year of challenge and change but through it all I still find contentment and joy.

This year I faced the most hectic challenges of facing full time honours and my first job. A wirl wind it has been, and haha sad to say I's not quite finished with my research work just yet. One thing I've learnt about my personality is that I just love procratination, that will never change.

Work life. Well I adjusted quickly, well as quiclkly as I could. My last day tomorrow then I go on holiday, so stoked. I must say, I can't imagine how to live without a pay cheque anymore ;) So 2013, I'll be back in my little storeroom office in 2013, but with a big loss, my fellow partner in crime is leaving for Germany. Sad times, I can honestly say without her, life at work would have not been the same. So here's to all the good laughs, memories, photos, food shoving and funny stories with her ;)

Family, well our added member is all grown up and running around now. Tyler, he will soon be a little heart breaker, but a handsome one at that! I'm hoping to see him more now that I am on holiday. As for my parents, well looks like we moving house again, in the new year and as for my bro, well looks like he's finally going to be moving on to the bigger things in life to Jozi!

Friends, wow. Talk about a rollercoaster. Through all the ups and downs though, I can say I cherish the ones around me. For those who have left and those who have just become a part of my heart. One huge lesson learnt this year wa sthat people change and we have to let them. So be it if their time in your life was for a season, sometimes the best thing to do is to let go and start a new adventure.

Life is full of possibilites, I am so keen for summer and good holiday memories. As for 2013. Bring it on, I'm ready for my second year of work. Ampted on another fresh year with our youth minisrty, God is doing amazing things in our teens lives and in turn changing our lives too!

This might or might be my last post for the year, if it is... well happy summer world!

peace x x