A Season of Challenge and expectation: Hello Hillsong, Hello Sydney.

So it’s been a while…. A long while… but I finally found myself with a little free time to get back into my thoughts, well online anyway ;)

What’s been happening since I last posted:

1.       I moved to Sydney , Australia

2.       I study worship and theology at Hillsong International Leadership College

3.       Made some seriously cool international friends

4.       I live with 9 amazing girls from all over the world

5.       I walk everywhere and miss my car dearly

6.       I cook and clean, hello domestication!

7.       Tim and I have been dating for nearly 11 months, taking down long distance like a boss

8.       My best friend Mandi and her cool Mexican man, Dan got hitched a week ago and I was blessed to be her maid of Honour

9.       I just turned 24 on Monday

10.   And life goes on… the tales of everyday life!

Well A LOT  has been happening. Life in 2014 is one big adventure and every day I am learning something new and being challenged. But what is life if I am not challenged and continuously moving forward? Sometimes I have to remind myself this everyday… keep.moving.forward.

I came into this year with one verse:

Joshua 1:9

This is my command be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged because the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

This verse has stuck with me and has been my truth for this season, my point of reference and my motivation.

Hillsong 2014, what a rollercoaster it has been, from getting my visa two days before leaving, to going to an ENT specialist in Sydney afraid of vocal damage, moving into a mansion with no fridge or furniture for a month, running out of money, making new friends, learning about my identity, being challenged about my values, being stretched in my serving, being disciplined in my vocal skills…the list goes on.

At the end of the day all I can say is that without FAITH this journey would have ended a long time ago, without trust in God I would have quit. But I am glad I didn’t. I am so excited to see where God steers me in the next 8 months in Australia and I am continuing to pray for bigger things and open eyes. College is slowly but surely changing my life, one baby step at a time... lets see what happens shall we.

Till next time xx

The Leap… challenging your heart and lifestyle. #youngandfree

So I think the thought of the future is half and half for me... half scary half ‘ I- can’t- wait -excitement’. Today I received my certificate for enrolment to Hillsong College 2014. A lifelong dream I have wanted to do since grade 8. It’s almost weird now, being older that these ‘dreams’ can actually come true.

On the other hand it’s a scary thought, leaving al you know behind you, leaving PE, my home town for the past 23 years. I come across people always wanting to run from this place, patting me on the back for ‘finally getting out’. But I don’t see it like that; I love my city, the simplicity of it, the chilled life, small town, friendly faces. I KNOW it all too well. Yes, I am a creature of comfort and I dislike change… so 2014… will be one of the biggest changes my eyes will ever see.

Yet I can’t wait to see what Hillsong has in store for me. I can’t wait to journey with a bunch of new people from all over the world that shares my passion for worship and ministry. I can’t wait to finally be free to write music and play my instruments in an environment of musicians, I can’t wait to see how God is going to change me and mould me after the year.

To tell the truth I am too comfortable here, life’s a peach. Friends, family, a job, live by the beach, got a good man by my side, working with youth and worship and I am alive and healthy. What more could you want? Well everyone needs a challenge, what better way of challenging yourself when you at your most comfortable happy place in life!

One thing is for sure. I am a blessed. One of the biggest changes I had to go through this year was, well … I met the man of my dreams. No but really, haha I asked God for a very specific guy, VERY SPECIFIC. And the funny man upstairs decides to give me everything and more that I asked for! WHAT A DAD! It’s crazy looking back now, I am dating my Hillsong Boy and I haven’t even gone to Hillsong yet! The thought of long distance is a frightening one, BUT I also know that God is good and he knows best.

My mom asked me the other day ‘Kel are you happy to have a boyfriend?”

My answer “haha mom I’m not happy to have a boyfriend, I was perfectly fine before this, BUT I am happy I am with Tim”

It’s about the person and not his title ;)

.....................yip it's about to get lame and cheesey

He will probably never read this so I am a free bird writing what I want ;) But if I can sum up anything it would be that God brought us together because of our mutual desire and passion for worship and life! Something simple grew from small beginnings into a deep friendship that blossomed into something that makes me smile every day.

Timothy Heine, the man that challenges me to be even stronger than I was before, he inspires me to get closer to God and love God more than I could ever love him or anything for that matter. He taught me to see a whole new world of compassion and love for people. He taught me to be generous and give people my time and patience. He proved that getting angry is a waste of our precious time and he also showed me that honouring God with EVERTHING is the bottom line.

I am quite excited to see where God takes us in the future and pray he takes us to new heights in our ministries both separately and together.

So that’s it from me for now… thoughts for the day,

Peace xxx

 

 

Finding the strength to fight fear

Proverbs 31:25

 

To be a woman who is clothed with strength and dignity, she has to find within herself the courage and boldness to not doubt the things around her.

 

God has chosen woman to be his expression of emotion, his expression of vulnerbilty and beauty. With that comes the human side of insecurity and fear.

However PERFECT love casts out all fear, as a woman clothed in his LOVE, we need to understand that we are CHOSEN and given the ability to feel EVRYTHING and experience a million emotions. a gift? haha some would think it is a curse.

 

Its scary. its scary to be vulnerable. To be open. to have the courage to let others see you, to let others care.

And when the time comes when people dissapoint you, when you feel like nobody cares. That is when WE MUST LOOK UP and seek GOD for that inner strength to overcome our fears.

 

xxx

 

The butterfly theory

So wow. you know for many years I never fully understood how a girl could fall for a guy or what 'falling' even meant.

Being single at the age of 23, Ive always been the objective type seeing things from a 'by-stander' perspective. I saw many couples come and go, seeing the girl fall for her guy, the sparkles in her eyes, the happy face slapping smile that nobody could get rid of.... haha. Seeing couples happy and seeing their relationship develop and eventually after a few yaers (well in the good cases) get engaged or even married (ya thats what happened to many of my friends over the past 3 years)

Anyway I think being single for so many years made me some what blind to the fact that this 'butterfly' feeling can exist. FOR EVERYONE! So what type of girl am I? Im the independant girl, the busy body who works hard and stays strong. The girl who knows a lot of people and knows who she is. Im the type who has many friends, is half a tom boy/half a girly girl and the type who stayed away from relationships because they seemed complicated, I always used the 'I'm busy" excuse and well... I needed the right ONE, the one guy who could make me believe in the butterfly theory.

So what is this butterfly theory?

Well for the girls.... Theres so many ways to descirbe it, and you almost can't decribe it in words so the only way people would undertand is by saying they have legit BUTTERFLIES in the stomach ;) I guess it is different for each girl... mmm wonder if boys get butterflies??



The butterfly symptoms:

• think about the person alot... everything you see makes you maybe think of them or relates to a memory of some kind.
• day dreams... constantly.
• nervous/giddy/ stupid smile face when you know you going to see them soon
• feeling in the pit of your gut when you finally get to see him and they smile at you
• the feeling of wishing time could stop when you with him so that you can chill longer
• the feeling of NOT being humanly able to stop smiling
• the complete peace of mind you have knowing this guy is just perfect for you and that this was meant to happen in life
• the feeling of wanting to share every thought, dream, question with this guy
• feeling 100% safe and secure in their company
• that lame cheesy feeling you get on the inside of your chest and your heart just dies when he says stuff like "you are lovely" or "I am attracted to your heart" or" I want to look after you"---- I MEAN WHO THE HECK SAYS STUFF LIKE THAT?? who!!! kinda hard to hear words like that and fully believe the senserity behind them (not because it's not true... but just because wow... WOW... kind words kill everytime haha)
• the smile on your face when your screen lights up with a message from him
• the 'blessed' state of mind a girl just seems to be absorbed in and lives through.
• that moment when you can sit in a car and not even speak being absoluetely content being in another humans company and you can turn your head and say "I am happy"...
• well that's my butterfly theory.

Theory explained. I think I get it now. You know all the chick flik movies you watch and say I wow that can't be real.. but then you secretly want your own cinderella story? well BOOM be careful what you wish for, coz you just might get it.

Well when the time is right, when you are ready, when he is ready and well... when God gives the GREEN LIGHT to bless the both of you with the butterflies!

At the end of the day. Oh my word... if you find a guy that gives you these butterflies.. good luck living through each day hahaha. Treat him right and appreciate him, coz its so worth it!

 x x x

Worth it!

Dear readers...
Been a while ey.
Lifes been pretty much madness since I last posted.

So as life goes on and we grow up certain things happen that may or may not change your life forever.

As girls, we often keep things in our heads, then vent to each other for days, weeks and months on end. BOYS haha... oh the WAIT FOR PRINCE CHARMING seems like an endless wait at a bustop ;)

I myself, have kind of always just blown through the wind, praying and waiting. Waiting can kind of be a super annoying stage but ey we just have to get through. Been chatting to a few close friends lately about this and well it seems its an issue for most. Is the wait worth it?

If i can say anything it would be that if your SEARCHING AND CHASING for a relationship or for Mr Right to find you. It most likely wont happen. We get so consumed by being single or trying to find someone to fill that 'gap' that we actually miss life and maybe even missing something right in front of our eyes. Something thats been there for a while but our brains refued to see it because we were too self absorbed.
The best thing to do would be LIVE LIFE and LOVE IT. Girls with a quiet peace and stillness are happy girls. Its been a long time coming where I could finally feel that peace, its something a person needs to decide on daily. TODAY I WILL BE HAPPY AND BE AT PEACE. why?

Well for me, I can be at peace because in the Stillness I know he is God and God blesses his children and we are favoured.

My closing words for my question... is it worth it? worth waiting for Prince charming?
My answer is 5 parts
1. Dont wait for him, live life and become a princess you've been born to be first. Sort your issues and be content with life and your own struggles. Otherwise 'THE WAIT' will juist frustrate you to the pouint of losing hope. (and we dont want that)
2. IT IS SO WORTH THE WAIT. every guy you thought you ever liked, had a crush on, or that lame guy that hurt you or that boy who friendzoned you for years. BOOM now you can say "Thank you that it never worked out with any of those dumbies"
3. Ah man its all worth it when you in a car and there's that one person next to you that is just staring at you and pouring out his feelings. It us that moment when you realize. THIS IS HAPPENING! It's that same moment when you cant stop smiling and you want to vomit or scream or die or just hug him till he cant breath haha.
4. WAIT for the hero that will call you lovely, that won't be afriad to tell you how he feels, that won't be afraid of what is to come next and who isn't afraid to share his heart and trust the girl sitting next to him.
5. If you are waiting for that? IT IS WORTH IT!

PRINCES OF THE KINGDOM ARE TOO REAL. :)



Till next time xxx

Simple joy

So I've been thinking lately, we waste so much of our time striving for big explosions of happiness or the event that would bring ultimate contentment. What about the little things? What about everything else that we let slip by whilst waiting for something big to happen. What if all the little things make up for  the time wasted waiting for 'that thing' you have been waiting for. It's the simple joys that happen in dull moments which can bring us happiness if we let it.

Like turning around a bend and the traffic light turns green to go...
Like a friends saying they miss you on a wall post...
Like your mom buying you a packet of sweets when you get home...
Like finding a quality youtube video that keeps you laughing for hours..
Like a hug from a friend
Like a smile from a car guard or till cashier
Like a prayers from a stranger...
Being invited to social events without asking
A gentelmen opening the door
Receiving a reply straight after you sent a message
Getting home and supper is made
A friend letting his food go cold in order to wait for our food to arrive

It's the little things that can effect the big things.

Much love

The authenticity of love

Hello 2013.

It's been a while, but here's a thought.

This year I wish to challenge myself into what it really means to understand, not the soppy kind of romantic love that we always just think of when we see hearts or look ahead to that day we call VALENTINES ;)

No. I mean, our love in the true authentic meaning of it. Loving ourselves, loving life, loving God, having love for people, our friends, partners, family, the poor, loving our hobbies or our pets, I guess what I mean is underatnduing the in's and out's of our hearts and what is meant by "Being in love with LOVE". It needs to be more than a word or a song lyric or a feeling or passing emotion, it needs to be a state of being, a movement, a lifestyle.

I've recently decided to do some theologial reserch on the term LOVE. I think to some people the word is overused and perhaps even lossed it's meaning. To others, maybe its misundertood or even used against each other. To many it is a complex thing term that they don't know what to do with. But to those who get to feel it, experience it, a zeal for love in life it becomes quite simple...

1 Corinthians 13:3-13

³ If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,^[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. ¹¹ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

peace x

A fresh perspective on Faith and Actively waiting

You ever in a situation where things are just not working out and it sucks? And then someone say’s “just wait on God’s timing”…and you seem to wait and wait and wait and you get over the cliché words. Things are out of your control and you end up losing the thing you wanted to keep so dear to you.

So the context.

You know something so well, it’s a habit, could be your job or a person you like or a dream that you’ve always held onto or perhaps a stagnant friendship. But as you grow up and you change, seasons change, it seems like those ‘things’ you were hanging onto seem to be slipping away.

In that time it is tough to be in that situation, it feels like things are being ripped from you and you will never get it back again. But some small quiet voice in the back of your mind is saying “Don’t worry, BE STILL, WAIT”.

So you say to yourself, I’ll never find a better job, or I’m never going to find someone better than him or could I have done something different? Am I passing up these opportunities?

An awesome quote I heard the other day was this “FAITH has to post signs on it… SLOW DOWN and WAIT HERE”

I have no doubt in my mind now how true that saying is…waiting is for a reason and the BEST is yet to come. A while back I thought I couldn’t possibly find better than what I had at that time. But rip them away…and change a few things up in life. Suddenly everything has changed and I think to myself. What was I thinking before? That was only a glimpse of what I could have in life, a glimpse of what I could do with life.

Since that time, I have developed a serious love of self- time and just dwelling on life and future dreams. Keep dreaming big, they always say. And that is what I will do. Sometimes the good is taken away from you to prepare you for something even greater.

I can feel the dawning of an exciting new chapter, when it will begin? I don’t exactly know but the butterflies I get from just knowing that it will be better than the last makes me smile and gives me hope. Until then I will wait, actively not passively. Waiting is never forever, it is temporary.

Much love xxx

Quality over Quantity

I pose the question?

Wouldn't you rather have 10 good friends than 30 or 40 average friendships that seem more like aqaintances than anything else.

Getting older, I realized seasons change, people change and so do our friendships, I love fellowship and I love my friends but I firmly believe now more than ever that a "friend" is not classified as a friend if you ...

1. Only see them at one of your other friends birthday parties and say hello or goodbye.

2. Never get asked how you are or never receive any sort of trace via text message, house visit, heck even facebook or twitter ..a trace of friendship that is.

3. They only come to your events when thee is free food or all their close friends are coming.

4. If you wouldn't hang out one on one with them (and now obviously im not talking about say if one of your girlfrieds has a boyfriend and you think you and the guy should hang out in order to be friends, NO, usually its rather creepy to be hanging out with your friends boyfriend alone, unless you are his sister or cousin, I'm sure the girlfriend would agree.)

5. I guess the biggest test would be if you and a friend can still keep in touch if circumstances change and one or both now live in different cities or countries.

Friendships are maintenance, but a good maintenance, they need effort, from both sides. They are not single roads, they are two way streets!

Funny random story for the day: so a guy at uni today, who I have known for at least 4 years and even have on facebook and actually had coffee with a group of people many a time. Well he walked up to me and said "hi are you Amber?" so I looked at him and laughed saying back, "Are you kidding?"

So the man says "No really are you not Amber (insert confused and serious look on his face)?",

So I said in a polite manner "No I am not and well ive know you very years, so you should know what my name is."

The man walked along saying "So worry, well then what is your name, Lauren perhaps ey?" the end.

You see ladies and gents...THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF PURE CONFUSION, and no I wouldn't considor us friends. haha.

Till next time xxx

10 things a girl can’t live without

(well this girl at least)...

1.       Eye liner. The difference between looking dead or alive

2.       Lip-ice. No-one likes chapped lips, and everyone wants to borrow yours if they don’t have anyway.

3.       A bottle of water. Keeping hydrated is the way forward.

4.       Girlfriends on speed dial, or at least bbm or whatsapp ...so you can share your latest news or if you need to vent at 12am

5.       A dose of retail therapy. Shopaholics unite with smiles and joy.

6.       Ghd. Straightener, you have saved me from many bad hair days.

7.       Gum boots. So we can walk through puddles like a BOSS

8.       A phone. Always the safe thing to stay connected ;)haha

9.       Some spare change. Never know when you just need a mc flurry or a cuppa coffee to make your day happy

10.   Tissues. There is always a need to carry tissues with you, there just is. And no not just to cry or sneeze.

xxx

A thought on CHANGE "We live and we learn"

So im busy reading an amazing book at the moment by Martin Smith. Wow a man of much wisdom.

He talks alot about CHANGE.

"Not in his goals but in his transitions man is great." - Ralph  W. Emerson

Smith reckons that CHANGE is the nature of contemorary life and that it is these 'transitional phases' that man goes through that proves his identity and charachter. good word.

We often meet people who say "yes i love change" or on the contrary we get others that say "I hate change, I love routine and order".

Truth be told, change is inevitable. Seasons come and go, and as people we CHANGE, and things change, are friendship groups change, our circumstances, phases of life, new jobs, moving to a new church or city or country even. one day we single next day we might find ourselves planning a wedding or beginning a family. One day we might be a student next thing we are in the working world.

But whatver happens, Smith puts emphisis on the TRANSITION. Tht its not so much the end goal that we should rely on or strive to accomplish but the journey through our transitional phases and chow those transitions mould us into the people we are becoming.

Towards the end of the chapter called "Keep the Faith" Smith says "transitions begin with an ending...Sometimes these endings are messy, sometimes smooth, sometimes terrifying. Often we have to takethose first steps in the predawn darkness"

He closes with this "When the wold is changing , we simply have to fix our eyes on something that never changes."

My new life motto has become this. "you live and you learn".. whether it'slearning from our family, friends, a tragedy, a mistake, an accomplishment, your pastor or a role model... we live and we learn. We never stop learning, we go though change, and the change moulds us and are charachters. We learn from our mistake or learn what works for us and what makes us happy or gives us joy.

peace xxx

the start to my morning...the use of time...wasted or useful?

The funny random pictures that made me chuckle this morning :)...they have utterly nothing to do with this post....

So its midweek, little saturday as they call it ;)

My thought for the day? is what do people do with their spare time? Ive always been the type of person who is just busy, ALL THE TIME. and no this is not always a good thing. Ever since I was in high school Ive always just channelled my spare time into doing 'stuff'.

 If I think of a typical week, I cant say I ever have one free night a week, or on a weekend there always seems to be some event, some birthday, wedding, engagement, baby shower,some band gig, some church function,a show or music concert perhaps or family affair, public holiday feasting or if not that by the end of the week you just need your social tanks to be filled so you force yourself to get out the house as apposed to sleeping or resting. As the quote goes, "sleep when you dead" right?

When I got to varisty in first year I was so shocked to find most of my classmates, had no hobbies or anything to do beside university. really wow?? I couldnt comprehend having that much time. But then again, maybe in little ways I would quietly envy the fact that they had so much time, I often wonder, how did I become this busy? hmmm think it's time to do some clean up and priority checks. I think I need some more me time ;)

After this year, I totally give respect to working people and will never tune them for why they want to have an 'early night' anymore.. haha I learnt the hard way.

Peace xx

the stepping stones

So been a while since I've blogged.

Past two weeks have been madness, but you learn and you live. So this is what has been some of my learning curbs...

1. the body loves sleep and rest, dont deprive it. It will show you who is BOSS and give up on you. Yes after a week of disturbed sleep and pulling all-nighters due to honours I came out after this weekedn, sick, tired and sincerly OVER everything haha! Lesson learned.

2. the next time I think im dreaming of the rain I WILL WAKE UP. So my drama for the week came at 230am on Tuesday morning... I thought I was dreaming of being in water and hearing the rain, but in reality, my room was flooding. Yes, indeed the geyser had burst and my room was no filling up with water. 5 days later, here I am, currently living on the floor in my study with 'stuff'. Room is bare and waiting for new paint, new carpets, new curtains, new bed, furniture. well that was eventful.

3. When life gets overwelming. STOP.

Theres a difference between being busy and being overwelmed. this past week, I dont think ive ever felt so stressed. Ever felt that everyone wants a piece of you, but they all have so many of their own issues that you feel like you cant share yours? well yes. ta da ;)

Its all about the mind at the end of the day. So when life hands you lemons and you have no evergy to whip up some lemonade, all I could do was sit back and stop. Just stop. stop. pause and reflect.

4. When your world is spinning. Pray :) the message lasnight at our church really hit home.

Life is all bout what we make of it, we choose to see things, to say things, to think things and to DO things. We need to constantly renew our mindsets to not be drowned out by the mess and drama of the world. Why are we always striving? what if the things we are contstantly striving for just never came. we need to find peace and contentment.

5. Remind yourself that lifes a journey not a race and you must always have the bigger picture in mind.

Keep it real xxx

When its cold and im uninspired to work. bleh

The net does wonderful things for my life when I'm feeling cold and flu-ish...

Procrastination has hit home once again ladies and gents.
I dont know why, maybe its just me but these are a list of the things I tend to WANT to do whilst in procratination mode.

1. Hit a solid facebook sesh (easy wastes an hour)
2. Find some funny ecards on tumblr and laugh by yourself
3. Paint my nails
4. clean my cupbords
5. have the urgancy to write a song or play an instrument
6. watch some series
7. make a 'to do list'
8. day dream about weekend plans
9. Make my files neat and tidy
10. highlight stuff...anything..notes, my diary
11. have a legit nap
12. Clean and straigten my hair for no reason at all
13. Want to go shopping
14. feel the need to bake or cook
15. feel the need to send message to friends you havent seen in a while
16. Go to gym

So basically, moral of the story, when one procrastinates it turns me into a OTT hygenic neat freak, with an obssion to be girly and domesticated and fit?

Funny what the brain does.

Thought of the day

Till next time xx

Out with the old, in with the new? easier said than done, what?

So it dawned on me for the past few weeks that maybe im just that kinda girl that doesnt like change. Although life doesnt wait for us, the only way to live is to embrace change. And that means letting go of the old to allow space for the new.

I've recently come to the conclusion that maybe its not that I need closure from unresolved matters, or I dont need something huge to happen to enter a new season. Sometimes I think people are a little afraid of letting go of the past because the past is all they know, those memories, those old habits, it's easy right? you know the routine of how life works because thats what you know. Even if its terrible and the routine sucks, why do we stay there, we linger.

 Is it maybe becasue we still hope that maybe that certain area or issue will resolve itself? or maybe you hope that maybe change can just happen by itself without doing anything?

No ...

No change. why settle for just holding on, if maybe just maybe letting it go could be the best thing you could ever do. Maybe the daunting thought of something new, is JUST the thing youve always dreamed of. But that something new needs space, space in our heads, speace in our hearts.

Do it, start today. Let go and try something new. I will try ;)

Ecards...gotta love a splash of sarcasm

A sign of old age but with the heart of a kid!

So this past weekend marked a significant time in my life, turnng the age of 22..means I am now on the other end of the scale, no more big celerbrations or themed parties. 22 what a weird number. Although i do miss being 21, I found a strange peace settling into my age this week. Life goes on, seasons come to pass.

2012, the year of much change and 22ness...all I have to say is This year has proved to me how valuable friendship is, and as you get older, the more meaningful the relationships in your life mean to you. I have been truely blessed to be surrounded by such beautiful and God favoured people in my life! Its overwelming!

My our bonds only get stronger as we get older!

Pet Peeves indeed!

So in every girls life there is just that list of things that annoy her to her death.Well I am no different.
I often wonder why do some things irritate poeple and do not bother someone else at all? Like really, touch my hair..I KILL YOU! I wonder if i would ever grow out of my little pet peeves, come on, everybody has to have them, if you dont, well lady you are lying to yourself.

Well here goes my list for today! You may call them first world pains to some degree haha...

1. waking me up before my alarm clock goes off

2. You start a conversation via text then dont reply back after

3. Argue with me that you are right even when you wrong

4. asking to check what is on the other channels when im clearly watching something

5. Playing with my hair

6. watching me while I work
7. Saying sorry, for something you repeat to do
8. Leaving dirty washing, plates or wet towels around the house
9. Not finishing a drink and sending it back to kitchen
10. People not tipping at a restuarant
11.someone pulling out your charger when you busy charging your phone

12. Saying you will reply later and then forget

13. hugging me in the middle of a conversation or for no reason

14. asking me to get you something to drink once youve clearly seen me put it back away in the fridge, seriously you could have asjed 5 seconds ago.

15. when you have to wait for a picture to load on the internet, geeez

ahhh Vent.com. haha come on, every girl has her list. Mine could possibly be longer but hey thats all I could come up with right now ;)

Capped and graduated 2012

With Graduation behind me I now look forward for what is to come. I think I am seriously going to miss my uni years, it was the best years of my life!When you are a teenager I often watched movies seeing those old people in hogwarts suits jumps in the air throwing their grad caps in the air, and now I got to do it. (To be very honest it was a bit of an anit climax...haha but ey thats just me) So My three year degree is done, I will always remember the 23rd of April 2012 as a milestone in my life. I am now a postgrad! Cant believe half the year is nearly done, crazy times! thats means half way through honours...

So what do do with the rest of my years?

Who knows, I would like to travel, work overseas, do music, and well then eventually get married and settle down..(but there is pleny of time for that)

One thing I do know is that 2013, I want to take a serious leap of faith and do something crazy, no more studying, maybe a short vacation job overseas or studio time doing music? If not why not;)

A bit about me and my life of worship

A lot of my life has to do with music so I thought why not make it a metaphor for life.Often I will hear songs and one will stick out to me for a certian season of my life. Ever happen to you? when you just can sing along and say 'this ong was made FOR me! People don't realize the power music has on them, music has a direct link to our emotions and can change our mood or enhance the mood we are already in.

A song is intricate and music is technical. So much emotions go into song writing or putting together a composed piece of music. I guess tu could say the same thing goes with our lives, from afar we are perceived as a certian type of person, by our looks, our jobs, what we do or even by our facebook pages. But often its the intricate detail that we miss out on, it is this intricate detail that make us so different.

In the line of music I would say, as a little girl I always dreamed of singign for people and standing on a stage, for my teeny bopper birthdays I always remember singing along to S club 7 or Britney. Truth be told I was pretty terrible at it and my fear of messing up held me back from performing as a kid. It was only in matric that I started singing, firstly for my church as a back up singer for our youth. From there I guess we can say 'the rest was history'. I believe I didn't go searching for music, music found me within worship. A huge part of who I am today is because of what I discovered through my years of becoming a singer or worship leader. More than just a song on a page I found meaning behind lyrics and a motive behind every note played, every harmony sung.

The little 5 year old girl who had dreams of singing finally came true in my varisty years where I was given various opportunties to lead my worship team infront of hundreds people at local city events. Music became my passion and there is always something more to learn. It's been a rollercoaster ride but a fun one at that. Who knows what the future will bring, so many times I think to myself, maybe I should quit my day job and see where my music can get me. Alas risky moves have never been my forte, I do however want to strive to do some cd recording by the time I turn 23.

So lets see what the future holds....